Sunday, May 20, 2007

Man... Watching FA finals (Man U vs Chelsea) was really a bore. Was watching at kit's house. Lern came over in his new car. So we went for a joy ride in it, it was a boring game anyway.

Halfway simmei message says "OH MY GOD". So quickly rush lern back to watch the match. See see it was still 0-0...

Anyhow, we ended up talking more on Dota than watching.

This is where it freaks me out. Damn i like remember every single thing about dota. No no i'm not talking about the prices of recipe or stuffs like that, i can remember every single thing of any hero, from the mana cost, cooldown, range, bla bla bla.

I even still remember the dota Maths. Like, having 2 Bashers doesn't mean u'll bash 30% (15% x 2), it'll end up to about 23%. Hero natural magic resistance of 25%. MKB works better on melee heroes than range, cos on melee the bonus 100 dmg is magical, while on range it's physical, thus can be reduced by armor.

Wah eye-opening. I got alot some more. Maybe i can pass the link on that. Haha. First gotta find where i keep it....

Signing out

Monday, May 14, 2007

It's my birthday. Woo hoo. Yay. Hurray.

Years ago i wouldn't even celebrate this day. Yeah my mum will buy me a cake. But deep inside i never felt like celebrating it. I didn't even feel happy about it, so what's with Happy Birthday?

But now, wit may around, she made me feel worthwhile. Thank u so much darling....

I used to think, if i wasn't born, my family wouldn't be so messed up. They would each go separate ways, maybe living a much happier life.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. He spent the whole day preparing dinner. She just took a few bites here and there and left in disgust.
I felt angry and sad. It's such rare occasion for us to eat at home. I always feel happy to eat at home. But alas, it is spoiled ever so easily.

It ain't gonna be long now. I'm very sure of it. I've given up hope long since. I wouldn't feel sad nor surprise if they came to that decision. Heck, i think i'll feel much better.

If there's anything i've learnt, it's that i'm never, ever, gonna be like them. Never.

Signing out.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Loh Kin Wai, MyKy
Birth Date: 14th may 86
Current status: re-attached. Haha!
Eye Colour: brown
Hair Colour: 'virgin hair'( just learnt this from esther), black
Righty or Lefty: righty

Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: cantonese hokkien chinese
Your Fears: parents? maybe not anymore.. haha. heights, abit of claustrophobia
Your Weakness: lazy
Your Perfect Pizza Toppings: pineapple, tuna, 1000 island

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: it's another brilliant day! Wake up! Yahoo! ZzZzZzZz
Your Bedtime: random wan
Your Most Missed Memory: Form 6 times....

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: mcd's
Single or Group Dates: single... i'm oblivious to the outside world.... haha
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Tea or Nestea: teh tarik!
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate!!!
Cappucino or Coffee: kopi

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: yes, hence my yellow teeth...
Curse: it's part and parcel of my life
Take a shower: duh
Have a crush: yeah, so many
Think you've been in love: ya. re-attached
Go to school: ha ha ha i'm no longer a school kid. I'm a uni student! wah hahaha! Like la it's such a happy thing....
Want to get married: yea, freaky eh?
Believe in yourself: at times i do doubt myself, like can i get pregnant...
Think you're a health freak: have dinner with me and tell me what you think <--- quoted esther.. haha

Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: no. i really wan
Gone to the mall: no
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: yes! hehe
Dyed your hair: no, virgin hair. haha

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: nay...
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: at times

Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping
To Be Married: 26-7

Layer Nine: In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour: anything
Best Hair Colour: natural hair colour
Short Hair or Long Hair: the one may's currently having now.

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: reading esther's snozzberry
1 Hour Ago: dota, then fatal error. A relief really
4.5 Hours Ago: fetching may from her all-girls-day-out. haha
1 Month Ago: started to study for finals
1 Year Ago: enjoying life, studying QUALITY study in KBU.

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love:
sex.... haha. i love football, and may of cos
I Feel: loved again. yay
I Hate: lots of things. i hate this, i hate that. bah!
I Hide: my private parts in something call thong
I Miss: hanging out with my best pals
I Need: money

Layer Twelve: Tag Five People
A-ha! Kenny botak, simmei, er, gosh i got such limited amount of ppl to tag..... Jo N if she reads this

DOTA!!! holy crap.....

i've been like, washed my hands clean of it for 4 months, till now!!

Must be the exam pressure, after the Differential Equantion paper we played like mad, cos the final paper was 10 days apart.

It was then i got hooked again.

ARGH!! now i can't stop playing at home..

Dota is a waste of time. I could do much beneficial thing rather than playing dota.

Dota kills the mind!!

It wastes money as well, playing at cc takes money!


But i'm good at it =Þ

Thursday, May 10, 2007

A relief really. May and I sat down and talked, for a long time really, and we finally worked things out.

No folks we ain't through yet. Ok so maybe some of u will clap some will boo, but heck, all i know is that the pain inside has gone away.

From the side of my parents, they say they don't mind.

Well, maybe it's a good ending to it?

Hope so.

But, i just dunno, i feel as though there's something missing.

Rachel just knew too much about me. ARGH!!!!!!

Signing out....

p.s: kit i din tell anyone i was home k. I was facing alot of problem. sorry if i couldn't call.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Coming home, was never a happy thing for me.

But I thought, well, at least I’ll get to see her.

But then again, shit always occurs don’t they?

What would you do when u’re caught in between?

Both are the ones u loved.

One side is whom u’ve grown to known since birth,

One is the love of your life.

Yet, both sides at times have disagreement.

It really pains me every time this occurs.

Guess it’ll be going in the path many of my relatives have warned me,

When your parents disagree, but u can’t let go.

It’s really difficult for me.

Maybe we both came from family of different background.

Our values are different. What is expected of my parents is different from hers.

Maybe this is it, the threshold of it.

It’s coming near to 2 years now.

Maybe 2 years is all.

She’s angry, I’m angry as well.

She’s sick and tired of pleasing them,

To me, isn’t it better to have them approve of her instead of the other way round?

“Every great thing has to come to an end.”

Maybe indeed…..

I just don’t know how I’ll live my life if that happens.

Sighing out.

Monday, May 7, 2007

NO it's not to say a baby hatched in a Japanese hospital.

I read this article in Sunday Star, a Japanese hospital had just installed a 'hatch', where parents (or guys who forgot to wear condoms) can drop off their unwanted, unplanned, un-called-for baby.

The baby will then be taken into care by the hospital.

But what caught my interest here is that, how they in the first place legalise such a system?
Somehow or rather, this almost equals saying out on a loudspeaker; "Ok folks, u can have unprotected sex, and when the baby is born, just dump it in HERE."

But then again, how many newborn babies were killed each year due to unprotected sex? Perhaps this could solve if not reduce the magnitude of the problem.

Even in Malaysia itself, news regarding newborn babies found in a rubbish bin is nothing new. Babies flushed down the toilet, thrown in the drain, left by the roadside!

So instead of leaving them to die and rot unattended, this 'hatch' provides an alternative as to give a new live to the babies. Anyhow if they were to stay with their blood parents, i wonder how they'll treat the baby, given they can even leave them out in the cold to die.

However, i think the major problem we're facing is the lack of sex education. But then, most ppl tends to think of it as a taboo. Elderly people feels talking to the younger generation about sex will cause them to probe more into it, in the end experiencing it!

IMHO, it works both ways. 1st thing is that wait for that young guy/gal to reach a mature state. Well this mature state itself is debatable, how do u define if a person is matured? Nvm... Leave that out for now.

The benefits of practising safe sex (controls the spread of STD, prevents UNWANTED BABIES) definitely outweighs the principle of not talking anything about SEX.

Well, if not talking about it IS going to help, why so many rape cases then? Why are there still babies dying in the streets?

Because not talking about it is NOT helping.

It's about time for the people to realise this.

I think gov can play the first step by starting a subject "Sex Education" in secondary schools. Maybe parents will get pissed. But how pissed can they get if their 14-year-old-daughter is pregnant?

Furthermore, it's funny how certain group of people keeps stressing sex as taboo and stuffs like that, but at the end of the day, those rape cases and incests involve their very own people.
It gets even worse in Uni (public uni's that is...). Being together with a girl at night is an offense. Holding hands is an offense. Everything regarding opposite genders being together is an offense. I know (not because i was caught doing it!), because my friend kept complaining to me how the guard kept warning him of his offenses.

Heck, it gets worse in Matriculation Coll Uni's. The same guy, told me some very interesting stories.

How they can only go out of campus on Saturday and Sunday. Makan have to be inside the campus. How many couples actually went out of campus to have 'fun'. Bah!

Makes me feel lucky to enter Form 6... haha! Matrix no-lifers...

At the end of my blog, i found out i've written alot of random stuffs again. Sorry to mess with your mind a bit. But Malaysians really should change their mentality. At least those in my Uni.

Signing out.