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I've been pushed way beyond my breakdown limit. It's come to a point i'm at a null state. I've been negative before, but i've never been so negative till like this, every single day there's shit.

1. Loss of my dad's jacket
It was both my dad's and my favourite jacket. It's Nat Geo limited edition jacket. So yes, it's practically unavailable in the market. It's not surprise neither that he's upset about it (heck i'm upset too). So yes i kena la wat else.

2. My car got hit by bus.
It was bad, i broke 3 ribs and my right hand is immobile. My car's in a wreck.
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Ok it's not that bad la. Was at junction then the bus kissed my car's butt. Dented bumper and scratches. But since it's the driver's fault, he paid for the repair (300 bucks).

3. Argued with my dad
Dunno what got into my head, but srsly i said stupid things. He was furious, as usual hurtful remarks were made.
Just slipped out that i lend my car to my friend. And he's against it. And it all fell apart from there.

4. My MP3 player spoilt
Great. My only companion as i walk from class to HEP and back to room is now dead.

5. Out of internet
I was sharing the Celcom broadband with 3 other guys. This dude who owns the modem, decides to not share it with us, but to share it with some other ppl instead. And yes i was fukken pissed. Owns the modem and he thinks he owns us. A fukken downloading freak too. Can u imagine, like for 2 to 3 months we subscribed to Celcom, he downloaded like 45~50Gbs of stuffs?
Uses the Thunder software to download, eating up all our bandwidths and we can't surf at all.
Fucking piece of rotting and selfish junk.

6. Forgot to bring my hostel room key
Things are just meant to stay bad between my dad and i. On my return day to uni, as we reach the bus station, only i realise i didn't bring my key along. Stupid me.
I have no roommate, so there'll be no other way to get into the room. No choice, i have to delay the buss while my dad speeds back to home to get it.
Again kena, but srsly it's my own stupidity (in fact all the cases are my own fault anyway lulz)

7. My car rosak, again
The key hole got jammed. I can't turn the key at all. Repair cost is RM265 (have to replace the whole thing). Yes. Again kena from dad. It's not my fault, but it is since i lend my car to my friend. I guess lending the car to others does increase the tendency of the key ignition be spoilt. Let this be a lesson to be learnt folks.

8. I remembered my assignment due date wrongly
So i had to rush back to room to complete it. Ha ha ha....


I was really stricken with stress due to the Intra-V thing. I was really grateful when it was over, for i was finally able to get some rest and recover.

Well apparently i'm not spared..


To my parents:
I hate going back to home. There. I've finally say it (i think i did though last time). There're always shits happening in the house. It's either my parents (which still torments me), or between my parents and I. I dunno why but when i'm with them, i just tend to do/say stupid things.
Can i just get out of your lives? So u both can just free yourself from this miserable life that i bring unto u? Winzhi lives to your expectation better.

To may:
I've always love u and u know it.
Still at times i have that dark thought that we should just break up, so i don't have to go home.
You've been there to support me all along.
This time it's just too much for me to handle.

To winzhi:
Ha ha... my lovely little sister. I've always been envious and jealous of u, because u just seems to get away with stuffs (bad results, your attitude bla bla bla). Funny, cos if i were in your position, i'd really fucked up, big time.
But still i dunno why i still sayang u so much. Bleh...

To aunt sharon/cuz shu-fei:
I rather not u to tell my parents anything about this.


I've been feeling all sorts of emotions, anger, hate, depressed, anxiety, suicidal, stressed, bengang. Till a point i've just become numb.

Things i felt like doing:
1. Jump off the railings (Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *splat*)
2. Cut myself. Some say it works to release the stress inside lulz
3. Smoke. some say it works too
4. Grab a gun and shoot everyone. But guns are unavailable here so maybe i should just stick to parang lulz.
5. Shout and scream and cry.


Life goes on i guess.

Or should it?



lulz....


p.s.: did this from my fac's pc lab and guess wat? It's raining cats and dogs outside and i can't get back to my room. lulz...

p.p.s: it's thundering like mad now. Maybe those guise above are waiting for me to get out in the rain, then they'll fry me with their bolts lulz...

p.p.p.s: Adei..... sakit....